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[ILookToHou]

Something strange happened to me a week ago. I've attached a link for the photo at the end of this post (I hope it works).

The last couple of weeks, I've been busy with a work project, deadline looming. I promised myself that I would do my best to put Whitney out of my mind until the project was complete... thinking of her puts me in an overly emotional place where I can't afford to be during this stretch. This meant no opening her tribute books, no searching YouTube for her stuff... I've been moderately successful, I still come here daily for at least a few minutes, and listen to nothing but Whitney during my long daily commute.

It appears whether or not Whitney is on my mind is not entirely up to me. I have a set of 12 keys for work, of which I use only 1... I've never had occasion to use the others, and don't know what they're for - they were just passed on to me by my predecessor. Last Friday at work, I had to enter a room that I had never gone into before. I went through each of those 11 keys until I found the one that worked. After I opened the door, I looked at the key's marking so that I would remember it if I needed to use it again. The key was marked in big letters "W E". The connection didn't hit me until a few seconds later.... and then the thought occurred to me, imagine if there was an H on the back of the key? I held it up again, and there it was... not on the back, but on the front, in much smaller font and closer to the blade of the key... "H". This was one of the few times in my life that I can honestly say that I thought I was dreaming for a second.

I've never experienced anything quite like this, and am usually skeptical when others experience them. All I can say is that this just didn't feel like a coincidence.

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[juzly]

I miss whitney. It sucks that it is true that the good die.

[Austin]

I am still in this haze about Whitney. I still think about her a lot as everyday life goes on.

And it's also weird coming here and seeing that this forum is now a remembrance of her. It's just so weird, I am not used to it and it's like there never was a defining moment for me where I heard the news, accepted it and dealt with it. I just never really found that moment. It's messy and muddled and keeps me in that haze about her.

[Whitney~Lover]

I went out last night with some friends who I hadn't seen since Whitney passed and INRBIO came on in the bar. My friend just said to me in a manner much more gentle than usual "don't be sad, she will live on forever in her music".

It was really nice, and kind of underlined what good friends they are to say such comforting words. Because I really do need them. I am just so sad about Whitney from time - wishing I could undo the one thing which can't be undone.

[artchannel]

There are lessons every day in life. Lessons in this. Lessons all around.

Lessons for me. Lessons for you.

I hope there are lessons all around for those who got high with Whitney.

[Butterflyj30]

I am still sad about Whitney I just don't think I am going to ever get over this. I am just still in complete shock.

[eric-luvs-nippy]

Petra, on 21 June 2012 - 11:08 AM, said:

I didn't listen to any music for about 2 weeks after she passed. It was really weird for me, I would actually go out without my headphones which is something that never happens. I couldn't listen to anyone else's music and I couldn't listen to her either. So I settled for silence and it was healing in a way.

Then came a period of listening to her music only, paying attention to avoiding certain songs, of course. That lasted for about a month and a half. I couldn't stand the fact that life went on and people kept making music, I had so many negative feelings about music in general and all artists. It didn't matter if I actually liked them or not, I "hated" them all.

And then I kinda got fed up with both the negativity and listening to her music only. I guess it was partly because I listened to a very small portion of her discography, like 20 songs or something like that (because I was afraid of moving to the ballads and deeper songs). So I started combining Whitney's music with everyone else's.

I can say that I'm in a good place now, I'm back to normal. I listen to her almost every day and I have no problem with other music. I guess music is a part of me. It took some time, but in the end, I can't just keep ignoring the world around me and keep myself in that sad, dark place. I believe she wouldn't want that. She wanted us to celebrate and I'm celebrating all of music. Hers, of course, holds a special place in my heart. I'm actually getting excited about new music, it's been a long time and it feels really good, healing in a way.

It's a process and I guess everyone has to do their time.

Haven't posted in a while because I wasn't up for it, but now I'm happy to do so cause I just wanted to share some thoughts with you all

So glad to hear you're enjoying music again Petra because, ofcourse all the madness and shock of these past few months is still very real to me too. But like you, on the other hand my profound love for music is almost like a religion. Whitney's death tumbled me into a sad and dark period musically for a while. But I'm very grateful my love for music was also the thing that helped me move on later on. So many serious and emotional songs, but also the cheery and positive ones helped to guide me through the days and I'm really feeling happy enough again to celebrate and enjoy Whitney and her music again! What a treasure she's been to the world and especially to us, her fans. Life is hard but also beautiful if you don't rebel against it, but try to accept the things that are out of your influence. And along with that, if you're able to steer, that what IS in your reach, in a good and positive direction, man, then you have a lot going for you. I'm the last one to say that this how I live my life all the time, but attempting to do so works for me. So, Whitney's death was not something we could stop from happening, but she herself, and the Lord she worshipped, want us and hope for us to be positive and as cheerful as can be, so here's to lots and lots and lots of that for all of you Love my online Nippy family

[love4whit]

This helped me today...

[karan]

OMG!!

Listened to I'll Be Home For Christmas right now - wow!! I had to stop it in the start, and think about it again, but then I played it eventually, and fortunately got through it well!! But damn, those lyrics and how she's FEELING them!!! Wow!! It seemed as if she is singing this right from heaven! Phew! How does one even handle it?!! My heart beat was so high and I was full of chills!! You are so loved Whitney!!

[liz06]

Listening to the One Wish album and while I stilll love those songs, I find them really hard to listen to. Christmas time is going to be hard for Whitney's family.

And watching the video for Celebrate, it looks like it's going to be a good video but it put me in a funk. I just miss her.

[karan]

I just wrote this poem for Whitney...thought I should share with y'all :



Passed through my veins
and stroked inside my heart
a voice touched by god
shook every part inside of me.
She opened up her mouth
and heaven came on earth
'Anointed!' - felt my heart
'this voice has got to be.'
She sang for broken hearts,
she sang for healing them,
she pulled the joy for us
and brought it out from nowhere,
She sang 'the greatest love
was to love your own self'
She helped us find the strength
that was lost inside somewhere.
But there were demons in the world
who came to break her soul,
She was human, she made mistakes
but she finally did amend;
A mother and a daughter
and an Icon she remained,
she was meant to survive
so she made it till the end.
But that was it for a mortal life,
as extraordinary as it was,
She still finally had to go home
her choir waited at the gate;
She sang above the clouds
as she sang here for us
for she no longer had to fight
and no longer had to wait.
What she left behind with us
the love she gave through the years
to celebrate it henceforth
is the best that I can do,
I'm so full of gratitude
and thank you for what you gave to me,
Now may you finally rest in peace
as in the end...you've made it through.

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You're finally in heaven Whitney - where you came from. I love you <3

[liz06]

Beautiful karan. A touching tribute.

[karan]

Been crying all day today. I know I've been doing real good compared to many fans, but then there are times. I saw the pic of the Kelly Price party with her having fun on stage - and I was like - Wow! Who could've known at that point, that she's here only for a couple more hours.
What gives me healing is the fact that I know - time can't turn back. No matter how much I cry or mourn - she's gone for real. And keeping grief won't change that. The only thing that I eventually end up thinking is - WHY? WHY HER? In the entire world why only her??

But I try my best to not think about it all. Today just wasn't one of those days.

Edited by karan, 22 July 2012 - 10:47 AM.

[worldsbest]

I miss Whitney...... Just when I thought I'm over her passing, here I am crying over this video...




I saw on the other thread Usher singing The Greatest Love of All live and acapella and he did a wonderful job with it together with his answer to Bill Clinton's question. It brought me teary eyed listening to him... It made me want to see Whitney's live version and so I went to check it on youtube and I just lose myself once again.... it's just so difficult until now.

[worldsbest]

worldsbest, on 03 August 2012 - 05:43 AM, said:

I miss Whitney...... Just when I thought I'm over her passing, here I am crying over this video...




I saw on the other thread Usher singing The Greatest Love of All live and acapella and he did a wonderful job with it together with his answer to Bill Clinton's question. It brought me teary eyed listening to him... It made me want to see Whitney's live version and so I went to check it on youtube and I just lose myself once again.... it's just so difficult until now.

Nice HD....




IT JUST HURT SOOO BAD Y'ALL... (